dialogue of faith

as usual my sunday is full. going to the three different churches is good but i think it may hurt me in the end. i'm not sure why i even go to holy trinity. i love the liturgy, the worship, however at times i haven't felt welcomed by the ppl at church. i always come out refreshed and ready to face another week. yet at coffee time it is almost squashed. i always am lost to talk with somebody. and with the japanese church, i go to attend the men's study group. this sunday was interesting, we had a dialogue of the church and how it's accepted certain ppl. i won't go into details but i've learned something new. i didn't realize that the baptist church does not extend membership to ppl who were infant baptized. and only accepts adult baptism. this has made it difficult for some church members to get membership with the church. it's not important however we must remember that the local church is part of the bigger church. the bigger church being that all believers belong to the church of Jesus. the church of God, the Holy Spirit. a church that includes catholics, anglicans, orthodox, other protestants etc. anyone who believes in the way, belongs to this church. now going back to my day.
final stop is almost always at sol cafe. a group of diverse ppl. the discussion was on science and freud. it was a heated discussion. afterwards i was sharing my thoughts with some ppl, and realized something about myself. i sometimes could dampen talks. i drown out ppl and not able to draw out ppl. there's so much i need to improve. i need to be cautious and careful when i talk. it seems only at sol and with men's group that i get to voice anything in english. other times it's in japanese. and i feel that my english speaking ability is losing out. i hope that i have some opportunities to talk in english. and so my day closed out with watching some "simpsons" that aired in 2005, and a japanese drama. now i'm writing on monday, there's lots to think and pray about.