reflections on christmas

since there is so much that many are writing about christmas. i thought i share my thoughts on christmas. until recently i did not much think seriously about christmas. i knew it was a celebration of Jesus' birth. other than that it was time to buy things for friends and family. these days it means alot more. reflecting through with advent, i have gained more about the meaning. it's funny how christmas has been designated as one of the last holiday before we begin the new year. i think it's important for those of us christians to take this holiday season, to reflect, look foward to what God has done in our lives. i hope to do so.
on this topic of christmas, i'd like to say, christmas is hard to celebrate for me. it used to be we'd have people over christmas day. since we've started the business, we're too tired to invite people. Since my dad's enjoyment comes from eating in front of tv. and for me the two day off means time to clean. i just can't really get into celebtory mood. i thought of volunteering and if there is an opening for anything, i'd rather do that then stay home. i wish there is a place i could go. if not i'm not sure what to do. christmas eve is fine since there are services i could attend. it's the actual day that i dread. i'm not sure if i want to go the japanese church for service. i'll attend morning eucharist but aside from it, i don't expect much.